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| Entry tags: | at the edge of the world, gift fic, ss/hg exchange |
At the Edge of the World - Part Two
Summary: They say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. Hermione's always been a smart woman; can she figure it what she's about to lose before it is too late?
Rating: PG
A/N -Originally posted here, At the Edge of the World was gift for
scatteredlogic from the Winter 2008
sshg_exchange. Original Prompt: Hermione has been working with Snape for a few years (author's choice of profession) and realizes that she's falling for him. Before she decides what to do about it, he begins dating someone else (again, author's choice). Hermione has to take action before she loses her chance. How she does it, and how he reacts is up to the author.
The Harry Potter universe belongs to J.K. Rowlings, I don't own any of it. "Edge of the World" is the title of a song by the band Runrig, written about the St Kilda archipelago in Scotland, and I have shamelessly appropriated it for my fic.
At the Edge of the World - Part Two
Enid Lynch.
Hermione rubbed her temples in the hope of relieving some of the pressure from a threatening headache. She didn’t have time to deal with a headache — she had work to finish before she could leave for the evening, and she had agreed to meet Severus to discuss his request from the night before.
The one where he asked her to help him figure out how to court Enid Lynch. The completely insane request that she had somehow ended up agreeing to consider.
As if she would know what sorts of things would attract another woman. She had told him as much, still utterly gobsmacked and barely able to form a coherent – if shrill – sentence. “I have every faith in you,” he replied.
And then he had done something so sneaky, so underhanded, so Slytherin...
He had thanked her for listening to him and said that if she would at least think about what he’d asked, he would be most grateful. Then he had reached out to grasp one of her hands and gently squeeze it, said her name in that smooth voice of his, and told her that he hadn’t had many friendships in his life, but he liked to think that he could call her "friend." He had looked so sincere and, for just the tiniest moment, vulnerable.
Her agreement to consider it came tumbling from her lips before she even realized what she was saying. Severus, being Severus, had seized upon the small victory, said goodnight and disappeared out the door before Hermione could find a way to backtrack.
"I got played, plain and simple," she muttered under her breath as she tidied up her desk for the night.
Even knowing it was probably just a ruse designed to play on her soft heart, Hermione knew she wouldn't tell him she had changed her mind.
She had always been a sucker for a pair of sad eyes.
Crookshanks' fluffy, flat face and deep brown-gold eyes came to mind, and Hermione smiled as she remembered her long-gone friend. He had been a good cat, sweet and affectionate in his own, cantankerous way. Loyal to his dying day, but perfectly willing to express his displeasure with a growl or a sharp swipe of his claws. Much like Severus.
Her lips twitched as she realized that she had inadvertently compared her friend to her old familiar. "I doubt Severus Snape would be half as willing to endure a belly rub and a cuddle just to cheer me up."
"You'll never know unless you ask, Miss Granger."
Hermione started, nearly knocking her "out" basket off the top of her desk. Severus stood in the doorway of her office, looking annoyingly amused.
Embarrassment made her tone sharp. "I'm getting you a bell."
Severus merely smirked and tilted his head toward the empty lab outside her office. "Your entire staff has left for the weekend, so I thought you might be close to being done. If not, I could probably find something to keep myself busy for a bit longer."
"I thought we agreed to meet at my place in half an hour?" She stood and crossed the small room to retrieve her down coat from the hook next to the door. Severus had been carrying his own coat and began to pull it on.
"Actually, I did some thinking after I left you last night -"
"You've changed your mind?" she interrupted, relief apparent in her voice.
"No, I haven't. As I was saying, I thought it would be more practical if we convened at my cottage this evening."
Curiosity warred with the desire to try to alleviate some of what was sure to be an awkward evening with the comfort of her own, familiar home.
"I will, of course, be willing to provide dinner if you will agree to the change in venue."
Satisfy your curiosity, get a free meal, listen to him for a bit, and then tell him no. What can it hurt?
"You cook?" Hermione asked with an obvious tone of disbelief as they made their way through the mostly deserted building.
"It may have escaped your notice, Miss Granger, but Hirta is not known for its four-star restaurants. Yes, I cook, as I had no desire to live off of pot noodles and crisps for the past decade."
Severus' cottage was located on the outskirts of the community, the farthest residential building from the center of the complex. Hermione suspected that had been a deliberate choice on someone's part. The wind and bracing cold had made conversation impossible during the fifteen-minute walk. By the time that Severus had opened his front door and ushered her in, Hermione felt as if she were nearly frozen.
His cottage was a twin to hers, architecturally speaking. They shared the same floor plan, as did almost all of the one-bedroom residences, but that was where the similarities ended. She favored dark colors and lots of shelving for her books and photos. Severus' living room was filled with comfortable-looking seating, lots of light and a fireplace that sprang to life the minute they walked through the door. He had bookshelves of his own, but they weren't the focal point of the space.
There was also the most delicious aroma in the air.
She sniffed appreciatively as Severus hung up her coat. "What smells so good?"
"Pot noodles and crisps," he deadpanned.
Dinner was actually a succulent roast with new potatoes, onions and carrots, followed by coffee in the living room. She was still cradling the warm mug between her hands, trying to come up with the best way to tell him that she wasn't going to help him, when Severus stood and held out his hand toward her.
"It's time to start."
Hermione looked from his hand to his face. "Start what?"
Severus smirked and offered his hand once more. "The time to back out would have been before you ate the dinner I so diligently prepared, Hermione."
Damn it. He was getting far too good at that, using her name at just the right moment to throw her off.
She set her mug on the coffee table and reached for his hand. "I have no idea what you're talking about, Severus."
His name was barely past her lips before Severus hauled her off the couch with enough force that Hermione ended up momentarily plastered against his chest. She regained her footing and glared at him. "What was that?"
Severus released her and took a step back, his expression suspiciously blank. "I apologize. I must have miscalculated the amount of effort required to move you. This way."
Hermione stared after his retreating form for a moment, speechless, then hurried to catch up. "Did you just imply that you thought I was fat?" She realized where they were before he had a chance to formulate a response. "Why are we in your bedroom, Mr. Snape?"
He continued across the room, walking around the large bed that dominated most of the floor space and completely ignoring her first question. Severus pulled open the closet door. "Have a seat. This could take awhile."
The only seating option in the room was the bed.
Any other man and Hermione would have assumed they were up to something, the entire "courting of Enid Lynch" nonsense notwithstanding, but this was Snape. Still, when she did lower herself to perch on the edge of the mattress, there was barely an inch of her rear in actual contact with the duvet. One wrong step in her direction and she would be off the bed and ready to lay down some ground rules in a heartbeat.
Get over yourself.
She did feel a tad ridiculous when Severus turned to say something and ended up smirking at her careful balancing act, but he kept his thoughts to himself on the matter.
"You still haven't told me what it is we're doing in here."
"I would have thought that was self-evident. I'm obviously attempting to seduce you -" Shock kept her immobile, fingers digging into the bedcover while her brain debated fight or flight, run or react. Severus stepped into his closet, then came out carrying several shirts, which he placed on the bed next to her. "By luring you into my boudoir to ask for your opinion of my wardrobe. Isn't that how all the great Lotharios began? By offering themselves up for 'honest criticism' and ridicule?" He continued to pull more clothing out of the closet.
I am not disappointed. I'm not.
"You want my opinion on how you dress? Why?"
She heard the sound of hangers returning to a bar, deep in the closet, and then Severus reappeared, empty-handed. He leaned against the bedroom wall. "I am not unaware that my ... style has remained virtually unchanged for the past several decades, and that I was not what one would call 'fashionable' even then. Fabrics and colors that served me well during my tenure at Hogwarts are not exactly eye-catching or attractive to the opposite sex."
"I wouldn't have said 'unchanged.' I haven't seen a single frock coat since I arrived on the island," Hermione teased.
"I'm delighted that you find this so amusing." He sounded anything but. "However, your amusement is only illustrating my point. I want the witch that I desire to find me desirable in return, Hermione."
"I wish you would stop doing that." Hermione mentally berated herself for letting that slip out. Especially when Severus arched his brow inquisitively.
"Doing what?"
She would rather pull out her own teeth than admit that the way he said her name could make her stomach tighten and tingle in a not-completely-unpleasant manner. "Stop putting yourself down like that. Don't deny it," Hermione rushed to cut him off, seeing the mutinous expression on his face. "Ron used to do the same thing, put himself down all the time, until I realized he was doing it so that his friends would rush in and tell him how great he was."
Severus looked aghast at being compared to Ron Weasley, as well he should. "That is not - I would never -"
"I don't think I've ever seen you at a loss for words before." Hermione made herself comfortable on the bed, drawing one leg up under the other, but careful to keep her shoe off of Severus' bedding. "I'm sure that wasn't your intent," she offered, generously.
Her fingers toyed with the material of his shirts, and Hermione realized that contrary to what she would have assumed - if she had bothered to really consider the matter before now - they were rather soft, and not all of them were black or white. There were greens and blues, and even one dark shade that could have passed for eggplant in the right light.
"Look, do you want someone to like you because of your clothes, or because of you?"
There was still a trace of annoyance in his face, but he continued to lean casually against the wall. "What I would prefer is for someone to - to use your rather simplistic word choice - to 'like' me. Period. Nearly fifty years of being myself has netted me two psychotic overlords, a plethora of deranged and/or narcissistic associates and an appalling lack of long-term romantic entanglements. I don't see anything wrong with attempting to stack the deck in my favor at this stage of the game."
She lifted the sleeve of one of the shirts up and smiled. "I think you already have, at least a bit. I wasn't kidding about the frock coat. Well, I was, but I was serious, too. The Severus Snape I remember from Hogwarts wouldn't have been caught without his full armor, much less be seen wearing something as scandalous as purple."
"It's aubergine."
"It's nice." Hermione looked at him, really looked at him. "I think you're fine just the way you are. Any woman should be proud to be associated with you." She felt it would be best if she didn't voice the rest of that thought - that if Enid Lynch couldn't be happy with Severus as is, she didn't deserve him.
Severus looked as if he didn't believe her. "You can't honestly expect me to believe there isn't anything about me that you would wish changed, if given the chance."
"If someone had asked me that fifteen or twenty years ago," she snorted. "Then you were the great bat in the dungeons, and you could intimidate the living heck out of me. You were quite often rude, almost always abrasive and I don't think I remember ever seeing you smile. Really smile, not that sneering thing you used to do whenever Malfoy or Parkinson managed to answer a question without resorting to sticking their noses too far up your bum."
Hermione stopped playing with his shirts and offered him a soft smile of her own. "You're different now. Don't get me wrong, you're not Mister Perfect, but you smile once in awhile, and I'm pretty sure I even heard you laugh last month when Mortimer managed to hit me with that botched charm."
She thought his lips twitched upward, ever so slightly. "You were a most unflattering shade of puce until well after lunch, if I remember correctly," Severus offered.
"It was a horrid color," she conceded. "My point is, if you were to suddenly start wearing bright colors and the latest styles, or offered toothy smiles and casual compliments, you wouldn't really be you."
Looking at him, standing there as he listened to her speak, Hermione realized just how badly he seemed to want companionship. If there truly was anything she could do to help him find it, it would be selfish of her not to try.
"If you're still set on dating, don't try to change yourself. That will only end in disaster because eventually you'll just end up reverting back to the Severus Snape we've all come to know and - tolerate.
"Instead, we'll focus on other things. Date ideas, topics to avoid over dinner, certain opinions you might want to hold off on expressing until at least the second date, things like that."
There was silence for a moment, then Severus pushed away from the wall. "You're the woman, and in this case that makes you far more knowledgeable than myself. Until Saturday next, then?"
"What's the 24th?"
"You and I are going on a date, Miss Granger."